It's Not Over

My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games when you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
I lose myself in all these fights I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed and throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

I R e m e m b e r Y o u

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain, the wind would whisper and I'd think of you and all the tears you cried, that called my name and when you needed me I came through. I paint a picture of the days gone by when love went blind and you would make me see I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes so that I knew that you were there for me.
Remember yesterday, walking hand in hand love letters in the sand, I remember you through the sleepless nights and every endless day I'd wanna hear you say I remember you
We spent the summer with the top rolled down. Wished ever after would be like this You said I love you babe, without a sound I said I'd give my life for just one kiss I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss
We've had our share of hard times but that's the price we paid and through it all we kept the promise that we made I swear you'll never be lonely
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain, washed away a dream of you but nothing else could ever take you away 'cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you
Remember yesterday walking hand in hand love letters in the sand I remember you through the sleepless nights and every endless day I'd wanna hear you say I remember you

Why do you build me up? Buttercup, baby just to let me down and mess me around and then worst of all you never call, baby. When you say you will but I love you still I need you more than anyone, darling. You know that I have from the start so build me up Buttercup, don't break my heart.
"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again but you're late, I wait around and then I went to the door, I can't take any more It's not you, you let me down again
Baby, baby, try to find a little time and I'll make you mine I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Why do you build me up? Buttercup, baby just to let me down and mess me around and then worst of all you never call, baby. When you say you will but I love you still I need you more than anyone, darling. You know that I have from the start so build me up Buttercup, don't break my heart.
You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore if you'd just let me know . Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more
Why do I need you so
Baby, baby, try to find a little time and I'll make you mine I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you

Y o T e E s p e r o

Si tenes tiempo de escuchar yo te disparo una señal que esta borracha y confundida, y no te viene mal. Aunque no escuches la cancion yo te la escribo para vos que extraña un poco aquel infierno, asi estaba mejor
Que vas a hacer?
Te gusta mas la rabia que la realidad. Pensar y no poder hablar, mirarte y no poder mirar.
Anda, que vas a estar mejor, no puedo ni cuidarme yo.
Estas gritando corazon, estas llorando de dolor. Cada vez que tengo un poco de aire, yo te pierdo
Dale, dame, lo que quieras, yo te espero primavera. Dale, dame, no te pierdas, yo te cuido de mi
Pichon de crag no sueñes mas, que te perdes si no bajas, que gambeteas y no tocas, que perfumas lo que ensucias. Es lo que hay, no es lo mejor, lo que quedaba en el cajon, es una pena al corazon, que no comprendas la cancion
Que extrañe tanto tu locura, no me entiendo
No me abandones por favor, que estoy perdiendo la ilusion y cada noche es mas dificil, no perderme

I Still Miss You

I can hardly speak and I can hardly sleep cuz you know I still miss you. All the words you said are running through my head, well you know it still hurts me
I try to make it through the days but you dance around until you got me going insane.
Let me take this time to look into your eyes, well you know, I still need you.
Let me take this time to say I'm doin' fine but you know, I still miss you.
All the times we laughed and all the times we joked, don't you know, I still miss you. When she said I was wrong, well I just carried on Whoa how I wished I could change your mind.
I know I let you take me there and I, and I never said that I was scared
So tell me what you're doing and tell me do you care. You tell me I'm a fool I know, but I don't really care

N a d a C a m b i o M i A m o r

No me resulta raro que ya no quieras tocarme.
Estas buscando alguien mas responsable.
Alguien sin confusiones que siempre este presentable, que no te de razones para enojarte.
Yo sigo siendo el mismo, viendo los mismos amigos, sintiendo siempre lo mismo.
Nada cambio mi amor.
No me resulta raro que ahora estes tan distante, solo fui un destino mas en tu viaje.
No fui tu valentino, no fui tu tipo de traje. Tuve que haber mutado para ganarte.
Yo sigo siendo el mismo, viendo los mismos amigos, sintiendo siempre lo mismo.
Yo sigo siendo el mismo, el que abrazaste temblando, el que torcio tu camino.

The Fairy Feller's Master Stroke

He's a fairy feller, the fairy folk have gathered. Round the new moon's shine to see the feller crack a nut at night's noon time to swing his axe he swears as he climbs He dares to deliver the master stroke
Ploughman wagoner will' and types, politician with senatorial pipe. He's a dilly dally
Pedagogue squinting wears a frown and a satyr peers under lady's gown. He's a dirty fellow what a dirty laddie-oh
Tatterdemalion and the junketer there's a thief and a dragonfly trumpeter. He's my hero
Fairy dandy tickling the fancy of his lady friend, the nymph in yellow (can we see the master stroke)
What a quaere fellow
Soldier sailor tinker tailor ploughboy, waiting to hear the sound and the arch magician presides. He is the leader
Oberon and Titania watched by a harridan
Mab is the queen and there's a good apothecary man Come to say hello
Fairy dandy tickling the fancy
Of his lady friend
The nymph in yellow
What a quaere fellow the ostler stares with hands on his knees. Come on mister feller. Crack it open if you please

W i t h o u t H e r

Softly I search my memories and hope I may find yesterday. And just like her, my thoughts wander and like her quietly slip away.
Love brings out the weakness in a man and I'm so weak I just can't stand to be without her.
There was a time she walked with me, but yesterday comes only one time.
And I can see a tomorrow with yesterday cling to my mind. Time will take her memory they say, but it gets harder every day to live without her

T h i n k A b o u t Y o u

When I'm walking down the streets and I feel it start to rain. I don't run for cover, I look up
again and it's blue I just have to think about you!
When the road is getting rocky, all the seas getting rock No matter what the trouble, it isn't very tough to get through
I just have to think about you!
Like the rain or sunshine breaking through the stormy weather. Every time my heart beats I remember that you're mine, then I'm fine
When the world feels fast and my life feels slow When I'm feeling way down, suddenly I know what to do I just have to think about you!(I'm taking!)
Like the rain or sunshine breaking through the stormy weather
Every time my heart beats I remember that you're mine, then I'm fine, so fine
I believe in magic and I do believe in love so without going to cast a spell
There's a little trick that I do-
I just have to think about you!
I'm always going to think about
You! Always going to think about, think about you!

N e v e r W i t h o u t Y o u

We were young, it was fun and we couldn't lose. Time were right, overnight. We were headline news, crazy days and reckless nights, limosuines and bright spotlights. We were brothers through it all
And your song will play on without you and this world won't forget about you
Every part of you was in your song
Now we will carry on, never without you
Here comes the song it's about you.
Here today, not alone with my memories. Life is strange how things change It's reality
You played a beautiful melody that keeps on haunting me I can always feel you by my side
I know all things must pass and only love will last I'll always love the memory of you and me
Take it away... you

Es logico que estando asi no te puedo ayudar y aunque quiero escuchar, tu no quieres hablar
Me enferma tu silencio, me destroza tu tristeza ¿Pero que puedo hacer?
Estoy cansado de pedir perdon y ni siquiera se
cual es la razon. Pero tu estas en mi corazon
Y no me importa ya si fue o no mi error
Y es magico,e se chispazo en los momentos que ya sin mirar atras se empieza a caminar
Tropiezo con el miedo sabiendo que no hay que temer, no hay nada que temer
Fallé otra vez.

Mas alla de cualquier conclusion o idea que se pueda generar con esto, me gustaria que solo las personas que conocen lo que paso/pasa realmente hablen o piensen con esto o lo que fuere que vaya a pasar. Todo aquel que me conoce bien sabe que soy reacio a toda cancion o toda pelicula que sea de amor. Siempre considere una mierda todo eso. Pero voy a hacer algo que pocas veces se vio, y voy a admitir que me equivoque. Quien iba a decir que cada cancion de amor, cada pelicula, cada minuto, iban a ser propiedad de una persona nada mas. Si alguien me decia unos meses atras: te vas a enamorar, yo hubiera atinado a impregnarle mis huellas dactilares en su rostro por decirlo de una manera sofisticada. Pero me equivoque gente.
Es dificil entender bien lo que paso. Muchos trataron de buscar una explicacion, pero jamas supieron darmela. Es cierto que el corazon manda en estos casos, y la logica pasa a un segundo plano. Pero es dificil pelear todos los dias contra ese impulso de acercarse a ella, y de sentirla. Es dificil pelear contra alguien que es tan omnipresente como Dios. Pero un dia, sabia decision, me canse de pelear. Y creo que fue la mejor decision que tome hasta el dia de la fecha.
Lentamente me deje llevar. De a poquito entro, silenciosa y cuidadosa, hasta que cuando me di cuenta se habia adueñado de mi. Y no son palabras nada mas, es cierto que uno lee de estas cosas en cada blog/fotolog pedorro que entra. Pero nadie lo siente de verdad. Nadie se desvive asi por una persona.
Ilogico. Esta era la parte hermosa de la historia. Pero como dice mi mama sabia: despues de una sonrisa, un llanto anda dando vueltas. Y la historia feliz tuvo su lado oscuro. Me acuerdo cuando me decian que eramos la misma persona en el sexo opuesto. Y es cierto.
Seguramente respondio a la logica. Dos polos negativos se repelen, y vaya que fue asi. Lo curioso es esta fascinacion que desperto en los demas. Me acuerdo de las personas que estaban sacando conclusiones, buscando motivos y respuestas a la cuestion. Pero creo que nadie las tiene. Sera que las cosas tenian que darse asi. Supongo que es tarde para pensarlo. Posiblemente me voy a tomar un dia para pensar, como le digo a todos: odio las cosas inconclusas.
Antes de terminar, me gustaria aclarar algo: yo no odio a nadie. Me parece estupido escribir como si pensara que alguien lo va a leer. Pero me gustaria aclararle a Ivan que no odio a nadie, pero se que si se lo aclaro en persona va a convertirse en un asunto de Estado, y no son los mas adecuados para hablar, considerando que no saben con quien estoy ni cuando. Dios quiera que no lo lea nadie, o que lo lea la enferma de siempre nada mas.

Cuando la conoci vivia la situacion mas rara que haya pasado. Siempre tirando para dos lados, el blanco y el negro me confundian hasta el extremo. Jamas consegui encontrar un punto intermedio, era el ejemplo perfecto de que el equilibrio no existe. Sin embargo, me gozaste con una cachetada lenta y callaste las 200 voces que teñian de blanco mis pelos.
A duras penas te acepte, fiel a mi costumbre de pensar en ellas dos nada mas. Es como cuando se refuta una teoria, aunque para mi se habia convertido en ley. Siempre dije que una persona se definia con su manera de empezar una conversacion, y una vez mas comprobe que es cierto. Hay algunos HOLA que dicen mucho, otros que no dicen nada. Otros que suenan un tanto misteriosos, otros denotan la poca capacidad intelectual del emisor, y otros son tan simples que se transforman en los mas tocantes.
Me dijiste 100 veces estupido por pensar tanto. Me defenestraste 500 veces por lastimarlas, me dijiste una sola vez las cosas. Y para la desgracia del mundo, me tocaste. Preguntale a ella lo malo que es enamorarme.
Inteligente como siempre, lo hiciste despues de que pasara el temblor. Curioso como siempre, te pregunte porque escuchabas esas canciones que tanto odiabas o para quien eran las frases sugerentes pero desviavas el tema siempre. Primer indicio. El resto es cuestion de logica, ese tipo de cosas siempre salen a la luz y se transforman en lo mas hermoso y doloroso que puede haber.
Lamentablemente, la vida es extraña. Uno comete pequeños errores, imperceptibles para la mayoria, pero errores al fin. Despues de leer esto imagino que pueden entender el final.
Antes de terminar, quisiera aclarar que no puedo escribir mas porque es dificil de describir, esas relaciones que ni los protagonistas entienden. Prueba irrefutable de que la relacion a la distancia es dificil.